Wednesday Struggles ...

For some reason, and I'm not entirely sure why (but not totally in the dark either) I'm struggling today.  Don't get me wrong, I'm certainly not on the verge of backsliding ... just feeling a bit like the heavens are made of brass and, of course, I know that's not true.  I can look back on my history with the Lord and know that He's certainly aware of everything going on in my life.  Wasn't it just last week I was proclaiming how blessed I am?  Yep, that was me ... I remember it (although vaguely at this moment).  I love His Word (I should spend much more time in it!). I'm so grateful for the times I've highlighted, underlined and made notes in my Bible that remind me of His faithfulness.  I'm encouraged by so much in the Word of God.  The passage in Joshua Chapter 4 when God instructs Joshua and he then relays the instruction to the Children of Israel to ... "Pass over before the ark of the Lord your God into the midst of Jordan, and take you up every man of you a stone upon his shoulder, according unto the number of tribes of the children of Israel: that this may be a sign among you, that when your children ask their fathers, in time to come, saying, What mean ye by these stones?".... In other words, when trouble comes your way again, when you feel like He's not listening, you can go back to this time (those stones) and it will remind you that He is mindful of your needs and, more importantly, it will cause you to remember that He WILL deliver you.  I am reminded today to remember the times of deliverance, times, in the not so distant past, when I was certain there was none.  So today I'm holding onto the Word and recollections of His faithfulness, in His timing, in His way ... I'll hold onto the things He's told me and not let the enemy convince me I've never heard from God (the Word tells me he's a liar, right? Right!).  "Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord ....."  The Lord will fight for you and ye shall hold your peace ...." (Exodus 14:13,14) ... Lord, I know you told me everything would be all right and I'm trusting you in spite of how I'm feeling right now.  I will not look at the situation, the circumstance.  I will only look to You.